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~DuskMind
Christian Schatz
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What is this I don't even...
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I know I haven't made a single post, art or journal-wise, since early May (okay, I haven't made an Art post in over half a year. Sue me).

Now, my reason for breaking my silence is, as the journal title says, illogical and irrational. It's because, like a fool, I am in love. There is nothing smart about being in love. Nothing. Taken word from word from a post I made on Facebook:
"There is nothing rational or logical about love. Not a damn thing. It cannot be justly explained. It alters behavior to such a degree they can't be properly followed with any certainty. And yet, we hold it dearly, as if it is the only thing that matters. Logic and rationality can kiss love's ass. Welcome to Humanity 101." -Me

But you know what? There's a guy I know who doesn't give a fuck about any of that right now. Especially when a certain woman is involved. That man is Christian. Aka Chaz. Aka Dalent. Aka The Duskmind. Aka me. And that woman? That woman is *Rudzie. I will not put her real name here because I don't think she'd appreciate it (or this journal). But she is known by Rudder/Rudzie/Roseth. I know her as Scrabble and Cowgirl. And you want to know a secret? I love her. With all my being. Beyond everything that even matters or exist in this world. And she hates it. But again, love doesn't make any sense. And it is the one thing I don't need to make sense. I know, deep beyond anything else I think or pretend to know, that I love her, and that I will be with her. And she will get mad at me for this entry. And she will get mad at me for everything I do. And I do not care. The only thing that I don't care about pertaining to her, is my own love for her. Yes, that sentence made next to no sense.
I would do anything for this woman. I'd sacrifice anything. Take any risk, go any distance. All for her. Let her go, you may say. If she doesn't return, she was never mine to begin with. Yeah, I know the saying. And I made the mistake of letting her go. She barely came back. And I won't make that mistake again. Nor does she want me to let her go. Though she won't admit that either. She won't admit her own emotions. She feels she needs to be strong and tough.
Rudder, honey, you need to be weak sometimes. And be open. And know that I would never betray you, or abandon you.

I could go on for hours, days, years. Paragraphs, pages, volumes. And I'd never be able to fully explain how I feel for her, and how much she means to me. I'd die before I got the chance to finish. She doesn't believe in love. Well, I'm going to dedicate the rest of my life to showing her it is real, and what it is. Even if it kills me. Let's hope it doesn't though.

*Rudzie I love you, and I am in love with you, and I am publicly making a fool of myself. And I frankly don't give a fuck.
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:iconcythete:
Thank you ever so much for the watch! :heart:
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~Idlewings Apr 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you for the fave ^^
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~beadclass Mar 26, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
thank you for adding my Thief Guild Wars earrings to your favourites :)
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~DuskMind Mar 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
They are magnificent. I had to. Wish I was a girl and had pierced ears to get them.
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~beadclass Mar 27, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
You know, you are not the first guy to say that about the guild wars earrings. :D I think that's cool, that even guys like the earrings.
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~DuskMind Mar 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
If a Necromancer or Elementalist one is designed that doesn't look as feminine, I'd be all over it.
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thanks for the watch :la:
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Mood: Joy ~kyrisnowpaw Feb 25, 2013  Student Digital Artist
thanks For the watch!! :D
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Mood: Joy ~ladymisterya Feb 21, 2013  Professional General Artist
Hi! thank you for fav! Have a good day ^_^
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~Siri-onDev Feb 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thx for watching. : )
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